Dear Ducky,
Today I miss my ex-colleague very much. So much so that I had to SMS her to tell her I miss her. Maybe it’s because I haven’t got a colleague I can get close to with here. In every place that I’ve worked, I will always have someone that I can be crazy with. Sometimes I think I worry too much about this into thinking that if I don’t find someone like that here in this new place, I don’t know how I’m going to survive. I know building relationship requires time. Looking back, it took me months to really really be close to someone so I guess I shouldn’t be in such a hurry in wanting to be close to someone in such a short time.
From having lunches previously where I literally can pour my whole heart out and have someone to understand me to now having lunches and keeping my whole heart into its place definitely needs some adjustment.
On my first day, I walked and talked like a tikus. Don’t know what the hell I’m afraid of.
Today, it’s better. At least I don’t walk like a tikus anymore. Don’t know just ask. Even if it makes me look stupid. I’d rather be stupid now than later.
But I think all these changes would do me some good. I’m the more reserved and timid kind so I need some exposure. I know I can do it. I can be less-reserved and braver but it’s the just new environment, culture, people and the adjustment that I’m going through that makes me feel like suddenly I’m so helpless.
Even though this is not my first time starting anew in a new place but I still have to go through the same feeling of insecurity and I worry about particularly so many things.
*pats on self shoulder*
*whispers to own self “you’ll be fine”*
Love,
Grace
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Life is always about fitting in, I guess. We all try to fit into groups in school, then into soulmates in uni, then into colleagues at the work place.
I guess to be able to fit in makes us more comfortable
And I don’t see anything wrong with wanting to be comfortable 
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Thanks Pelf, reading your comment makes me feel a whole lot better.
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Well, now that you’re not so tikus anymore, try going to the whole floor and to each cubicle and introduce yourself to them! Yes, it’ll feel weird at first but at least you’ll make an impact for yourself. They will remember you as the new girl who’s friendly enough to go introduce herself. Also, this way helps you to get to know people better. >:d< You’ll do fine.
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hey, tis comes a little late.. was sort of bz b4 this.
i understand how u feel, coz tat is what i felt too. trying to fit in wif de new enviornment.
i hate being the new comer,the one that has nothing to say at lunch time cos they hav their own topics..
and it sure takes a while to fit in.. but its already been a month and half and i think i m starting to warm up wif them.
i am sure u will too, wif ur colleagues.. just give urself and them sometimes. soon, u’ll hav one or two close colleagues.. and ur own ‘gang’.. =) it’ll take time but it’ll come..
good luck =)
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thanks ben. It’s getting better everyday and I want to keep expanding my circle of friends at work.
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