Being Introverted

Someone accompanied me to dinner today. I was going to eat alone anyway so it was nice to know that someone had time to spare and asked if I had time to spare too.

Received a comment today that I’m very quiet from someone who’s loud. I can tell you many people have problem with quiet people. It’s less of a problem if people are talkative. As always and like I’ve said it a million times, I am always trying to talk more. But you know what? If you are quiet by nature, you are just going to be quiet by nature. I can force myself to talk more even when I don’t like it, even when I don’t feel the need to, but the thing is…I don’t feel comfortable and I just don’t feel like I’m myself.

It’s a daily battle for me, especially when you work with exceptionally extroverted people. I have no problem with that. The problem is they think I have a problem, when I really do not have. I will ask when I’m unclear. I will voice out when I’m not satisfied, maybe not immediately. It’s just that I don’t always ask all the time because I prefer spending time alone to think over the problems and possible solutions before I ask, when I know I won’t get the answer within me.

Anyway, I didn’t feel like going home after dinner so I loitered at the bookstore till it closed.

Books make me happy. They will never betray.

My book was there waiting for me so I picked it up, found a chair to sit on and indulge for an hour. I feel so at peace with myself, so happy. It’s weird but it’s true. I think I’m going to spend more hours at the bookstore when I have the time. There is so much to learn by just reading. It can be just about any subject of any book and it’ll bring me a smile if I think it’s funny or I go…hmmm if it strikes a chord. Best of all, it’ free (unless except I find a book I cannot resist and I must bring it home with me). Today there wasn’t such book because that book was too expensive, which is another reason why it keeps making me go back to finish reading it.

I came home, called Mum as usual. Oh, before I forget, Iris was awarded “Employee of the Month”. If you’re reading this, I’m so proud of you.

Then, I kept listening to this song. It feels nice and calm on a night like this, with my hair tied up into a ponytail and enjoying the solitude. It’s 2:07am. Time for bed.

Thank you God for blessing me with some nice people at work to balance off the not-so-good people at work. I know it’s not a perfect world so I appreciate every kind person I come across. To those that have once been kind and now decide not to be kind anymore, I”ll let them be whoever they choose to be.