Cook. Write. Pray.

Was supposed to: clean the house. Just clean the house.

What I actually did: Anything but clean the house!

1. Cooked dinner yesterday and today. Good!

2. I actually like writing in Korean. There’s just a kind of satisfying feeling whenever I complete a sentence, subsequently a paragraph and finally a whole essay. Sometimes I ask myself why I wrote what I wrote, how did I even thought of how to use the word. I can’t really explain it but it just seems to fall into place (in this case, on the paper) with just me, the pencil and the help of the dictionary for new vocabulary.  Oh. I love languages!  🙂

3. Washed and sent the car for service.

4. Went to the temple again, this time with a friend. She needed company.

5. Wished tomorrow was a holiday!

 

Happiness is…#77

I saw it, had a crush on it. Put it back, walked around the department store to see if I really really liked it. Saw some nice clothes but told myself no. I’m saving for my trip. I can get a whole lot more then.

Came back to where my crush was. I asked the sales attendant if there’s discount for the bag. I heard her say 15%. I went to the cashier and realised it’s 50%!!!  (6)

Me, GPS and the Temple

I had this sudden desire to visit the temple. Whenever I feel a little down in the dumps and after talking to people and if I still don’t feel good, I would think of going there.

I have never been able to find the shortest way to get there. I would always go through a long way to get there because I just don’t know how to, not even with the help of my GPS the last time. So, today..I drove alone. A new experience for me because whenever I go to the temple, there’s always someone with me. It’s either my sister, my parents or all of us together. I relied on the GPS as well and told myself even if I ended up taking the long way again because sometimes I don’t know what my GPS is trying to tell me and because KL has got too many paths that branches out on a highway to take, I tend to take the wrong one! Talk about knowing my GPS better.

I think I sort of bonded with my GPS already today. He led me there. It still wasn’t completely accurate because I turned off a junction too soon but that turn off put a smile on my face. I saw a really nice place. Sierra Seputeh.

Prayed. Probably one of the longest. Even the ash from the joss sticks started spattering the back of my hand, stinging me slightly.

The last time I was here. I prayed for the strength and a guiding light to a problem I had then. After 4 years being haunted with the problem, now I’m free. The moment I knew it’s solved, I didn’t had the excitement of jumping up and down nor did I laughed. I was trapped for so long that I think I grew immuned to it. Of course, there was a sense of relief and my heart just felt like it could fly again. Today, I came here wanting to be grateful that this has now pass. I met the person who caused me all these pain the last week or so. I saw him from inside a restaurant and he was standing outside with a woman and I think he was about to come in when he saw me. He went elsewhere. At that moment, I do not feel any hatred or whatsoever. I swear if my friends or people who knew my story had seen him, they would maybe bash him up. It’s the thought that they would bash him up (though I know they wouldn’t literary do so) makes me feel warm inside because I know people care for me. I have troubled so many people during the process but they did not give up on me. For that, I thank you.

This entire week hasn’t been that kind to me or I should say I didn’t have enough capacity in my heart to take in that much so I kinda got a little dramatic than I intended to. Although there were actions, situations and people who contributed into the drama I was in, I wouldn’t say I disliked or hated anyone in particular. I just hated the situation and circumstances I was in. Mostly because something similar had happened before and I am angry that I’m reminded of the past. I am also angry that it seems to be repeating. I may have actually started to have a good feeling about something and that’s also when I started to realise things that may not go smoothly in the long run even though I think I could and I may be able to bend myself to accept the situation as is now. That was a form of disappointment and frustration that I wanted to let go.

If you ask me, I can forgive and move on and not take things too seriously. But I need to carry myself well and be more mature, wise and steady should I bump into issues like these in the future. When I was thrown with the problem I had 4 years ago, I thought it was so big, nothing else would be bigger than this. I just want to tell myself that this really isn’t a big problem at all, the things that happened the past week. I just need to recollect myself and just be Grace.

I want to thank my friends and everyone who had listened to me, who were there to support me. I’m blessed that I have people that I can count on to.

Love,
Grace

To Walk With You

It’s a sweet thing when a guy walks you to your car, walks with you when you’re alone when it’s getting late, texts you to ask if you’ve reached home safely.

Guys like these are hard to comeby. It’s just heartwarming even if it didn’t happen to me but to see someone do it.

And I pray that guys like these will be loved.

巨蟹座

Something I found on Facebook and this is quite true.

6月22日-7月22日

巨蟹都是乖孩子
把自己隔离在没有污染的世界里。
巨蟹纯净得你想象不到,过着简单的生活。
喜欢一个人是真的喜欢,可以喜欢很久很久,
但有一天后来发现对方变得自己不认识了,
巨蟹会毫不犹豫的头也不回把自己从那段回忆中抽离出来。
他们不是胆小鬼,只是太会保护自己,太清醒了。

巨蟹座,是一个灵魂,你看不到它的全部,
它会让你觉得它是快乐的,可是却又有突然的感伤。
它让你觉得它是痛苦的,可是一句话就让它温暖起来。
它让你纠结,可是也让你发现简单的美好。
爱巨蟹最好的办法就是陪着它,看它哭为它递上纸巾给它肩膀;
它笑它会感染你,让你也很幸福。

巨蟹对于感兴趣的事情抓住不撒手,执着的可怕。
尤其吃的东西比较专一,不易改变。直吃到厌恶想吐。
对于不感兴趣的人没表情,连装也难。
拒绝一切装的人事物。
性格极端敏感,占有欲强,重度精神洁癖强,
烈缺乏安全感而有依赖感。没事喜欢胡思乱想,
过份回忆过去沉浸悲伤难释怀。严重恋旧癖好。

巨蟹是一个非常单纯的星座,一般很少主动有自己的欲望。
往往天真的把一切想的过于美好,
因此毫无防备的把自己的全部都展现出来,
用心去与人沟通说的就是巨蟹这种傻得出气的个性。
当然,看似纯洁的不得了的天真性格背后,
反面也是巨蟹在成熟之后,要比任何星座都冷血残酷原因所

有时候,巨蟹希望时间停下,就这样和喜欢的人地老天荒;
有时候,巨蟹发现身边的人都不了解自己,面对身边的人,突然觉得说不出话;
有时候,在自己脆弱的时候,想一个人躲起来,不愿别人看到自己的伤口;
有时候,巨蟹突然很想逃离现在的生活,想不顾一切收拾简单的行李去流浪

如果巨蟹一分钟前还话很多,一分钟后非常的沉默,那是他们开始做梦了。
这个时候他们不愿意别人来打扰他们的梦,尤其是美梦,
就算你和他们说话,他们也会有一句没一句的,心不在焉。
记得千万别缠着他们,他们烦了的话就惨了。
这个时候只要待在他们身边等他们醒就可以了。

巨蟹座很多巨蟹喜欢海,喜欢雨天,喜欢顾影自怜.喜欢自己添伤口。
他们的性格很古怪,他们会突然在大笑中沉默,感觉悲伤
他们心里想什么从来不说.别人也猜不到。
他们不喜欢受别人限制。
他们不喜欢任何东西过于圆满,
对他们来说有缺陷的人生才是完美的,缺陷是灵魂的出口

巨蟹座的人,寻找爱情的方式是靠感觉。这好比骑自行车,就算你十年,二十年…
都没骑过,但当你再次骑上自行车得那一刻,以前骑自行车得感觉一点都不陌生。
就像巨蟹真心爱得人,就算分开多久,当再次相遇的时候,对她(他)的感觉依旧….

巨蟹座有生俱来的敏锐和洞察力与聪颖的天资。
他们知道自己的优势在哪里。
聪明的巨蟹座比一般人容易抓出事情的核心,但理解不代表会复制学习,
而且,不论巨蟹座再怎么聪明丶综观全局,
他仍会在爱情上做自残似的妥协。
以为自己的让步或装聋作哑能够获得情人的回头与至爱

当一个巨蟹对你说“我爱你”,请你注意了,一定要认真。
因为巨蟹是一个很奇怪的星座,即使心里爱你200%也会只在嘴上承认20%。
巨蟹们不像有些星座心里爱对方20%却在嘴上放大一两百倍,
那种事情,巨蟹不理解也做不来。

如果蟹蟹沉默了,那么他的心一定是在滴血一样的痛,
那是因为他最在乎的人或事让他失望了,
或许这种失望是因为蟹蟹的敏感而胡乱猜想的结果。
但是,蟹蟹就是这样,不管是事实还是自己的想像,失望的心情是一样的,
而沉默是蟹蟹唯一的选择。敏感的蟹蟹总在为难着自己

别等不该等的人,别伤不该伤的心。
有些人,注定是生命中的匆匆过客;
有些事,常常让我们很无奈。与其伤心流泪,不如从容面对。孤独,不一定不快乐;
得到,不一定能长久;失去不一定不再拥有。
爱的时候,让他自由;不爱的时候,让爱自由。
看的淡一点,伤就会少一点

巨蟹座喜欢配合别人,迁就别人。自我意识比较薄弱。
其实蟹蟹不擅交际的,一般情况下不喜欢说太多。 小老实,小保守。
虽然嘴巴小笨却知道什么话该说,什么话不该说。
不过在人多的场合也不会扭扭捏捏小家子气,说话会大大方方。
这也是蟹蟹气质出众人缘好的一个原因

巨蟹座的孩子,有点笨,有点疯,有点傻。有时神经很大条
对朋友很珍惜,真心对待。面对爱情,怕受伤,爱逃避。
有时会很绝情,却还是心软。很懒,怕孤独。爱安静,爱写东西。
超级吃货,吃货说明好养!
遇见巨蟹座的孩子,请珍惜。

一个巨蟹座的女孩子要走向成功,
意味着她会付出别别人更多的努力,
这也是没错的,
因为不太会用手段和伎俩,
也不喜欢用言语去达到目的,
虽然她知道有的时候必须要那样做,
但是行动上不会那么做,
但是她要走向她想要的,
所以她始终努力努力去做

如果你不小心爱上了巨蟹座,
请别因为巨蟹不肯沟通和解释去解决问题而愤愤不平。
巨蟹只是不知道该怎么说出口,有些话巨蟹觉得你会懂,就不必每天说给你听。
冷静地告诉巨蟹,你的委屈和疑问。
告诉巨蟹,你需要他的帮助和安慰。
巨蟹会慢慢学会理解你并且努力避免误会再次发生

巨蟹座的人经常忧心冲冲,又不愿和朋友分享而将烦脑隐藏在心中,
经年累月下来,易伤及消化系统,
因而容易罹患肠胃溃疡的毛病。
具有高度的想像力,善加发挥时,能解除心中的郁结;
但若生活过於认真时,会使其杞人忧天和多疑的毛病更加严重。
鉴于蟹蟹不喜欢烦扰别人,所以遇事要多想开点。

1.不要当三瓶女人:年轻时是花瓶,中年时是醋瓶,老年时是药瓶。
2.不要做三转女人:围着锅台转,围着老公转,围着孩子转。
3.做三独立女人:思想独立、能力独立、经济独立;
4.三养女人:修养,涵养、保养;
5.三丽女人:美丽、能力、魅力。

巨蟹座最在乎的是家的温暖,
敏感的心使得他们有时候表现的放不开,
对于有责任感的爱很渴望,也很珍惜,
所以爱蟹蟹,最重要的就是保证能给他们足够的安全感。
那些漂浮不定的感情是蟹蟹不能承受的,
他们会因为不稳定的情感而筋疲力尽,
如果你的心容易摇摆不定,请认真想好,
别让蟹蟹伤心难过

巨蟹座女生的敏感会引发小心眼泛滥,
所以,
你不能在蟹蟹女面前夸别的女孩漂亮,
不能在蟹蟹女面前夸别的女孩聪明,
不能在蟹蟹女面前夸别的女孩能干,
反正你只要说蟹蟹最好就对了。
否则,敏感的蟹蟹女会觉得你在挑剔她,不喜欢她了。
此时,你也将要看到一个不声不响躲在自己世界里纠结郁闷的可怜蟹蟹女

巨蟹座是12星座中最爱心爆棚的星座,
心中怀着无穷的温柔与爱心,
无时无刻不在流露对世人的热爱,
对生命的赞赏。洗涤善良总是把温暖快乐带给别人,
具有从事公益活动的精神。
常常不顾自己,尽力完成别人的托付,
要小心被心怀不轨的人利用,
不过却不会因此改变性格,
但却会升华这些教训,变得越来越坚强

巨蟹座不会伪装,
连听到那个人的名字,
连一个释怀的微笑都做不到。
巨蟹座很笨,笨到连’讨厌’恨 都不会。
巨蟹座何时会长大,何时能会伪装,何时能看开一切。
或许纯真 是巨蟹的优点但又是缺

如果你爱上巨蟹座,就保持这样的心态:
1你不能计较他的自私;
2性格开朗,爱玩爱笑;
3、绝不能挑战他的自尊心;
4、最好不要和巨蟹座吵架;
5、巨蟹座在生气的时候说的话,你不能计较当真;
6、你的外在不能输给大众,即使你不够美到艳压群芳,你起码要是有个性有特色。

巨蟹座们总是
明明在深爱,却表达不完美;
明知要放弃,却不甘心就此离开;
明知是煎熬,却又躱不掉;
明知无前路,心却早已收不回来;
明知会受伤,却不愿意放手;
明知要等待,却傻傻的独自寂寞;
明明不联系,却会拼命的想起对方!
蟹蟹们为何这样为难自己

【真性情的巨蟹座】
1.巨蟹座的热情可以把你融化
2.巨蟹座的冷漠可以让你对自己产生怀疑
3.巨蟹座的霸道往往叫你无可奈何
4.巨蟹座的聪慧让你连连叹息
5.巨蟹座的冒失让你斜线三条
6.巨蟹座的固执让你火冒三丈
7.巨蟹座的幽默让你觉得人生并没有那么多不快
8.巨蟹座故装的坚强会让你产生想疼惜的念头

感情相当丰富的巨蟹座,
天生不喜欢为难他人,尽管巨蟹性格有些固执,
但一旦碰上和感情有关的人事物就是无法铁面无私或是拉下脸来,
特别是人情包袱向来是巨蟹较难克服的弱点,
说他们心软,实在不是没原因

【这样的巨蟹座你能不爱吗】
不迟到,不说谎,内心温柔,有真性情,有想象力,沉默,
说话适可而止,说出的话与行动相符,
对一切持有善意而又有力,内心有价值观,
孩子一样容易付出、容易受伤、容易复原,相信爱,实践爱
你错过巨蟹座了吗?

巨蟹座敏感,
别人一句也许无心的话或者一个无意识的举动会使蟹子开始胡思乱想,开始患得患失。
然后蟹子就变得脾气忽冷忽热,
其实蟹子只是失去安全感。
蟹子都是刀子嘴豆腐心,在怨恨一个人的同时其实也会拼命地保护这个人。
这就是蟹子的善良

巨蟹座的女人虽然容易多愁善感,但绝对不是林黛玉。
巨蟹座的女人很容易伤心,但绝对不会一哭二闹三上吊。
巨蟹座的女人可能看起来很凶,其实是内心最柔软的。
巨蟹座的女人可能看起来很坚强,其实是最脆弱的。
巨蟹座的女人可能很爱哭,但她的哭并不代表认输