First of all, I just need to rant about one thing. There’s news that Avril Lavigne’s concert has been cancelled and there is also a news shortly after that in The Star online that the organisers will try to stage the concert. I don’t understand why it is so hard to have a rock concert in Malaysia. If it’s going to be cancelled, I’m going to be VERY DISAPPOINTED with our country. And why at the very last minute? Bought the tickets, took leave specifically on that day to attend the concert and now this. And that isn’t solely why I’m angry. I’m angry because I don’t see how rock is going to corrupt us.

I WANT TO GO TO AVRIL LAVIGNE’S CONCERT!!!

I WANT!!!

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Today is a much better day. In fact, it made everything that I talked about yesterday seemed small. I think I blown it out of proportion a little. In spite of what I’ve written, I still think I’m lucky to have this job and I’m destined to have this job at this juncture of time. Sometimes we just don’t need to think too much to complicate things. I must learn how to simplify my thoughts. Writing it out helps even though what you wrote yesterday makes you look like an idiot today. If I don’t write it out, I don’t think I’ll be okay today. I’ll still be stuck in that solemn mood.

My favourite Olympics sports is going to be shown from tomorrow onwards. Rhythmic Gymnastics! Synchronized Swimming (started already) and I enjoyed watching the Trampoline event. First time I’m seeing such a sports event. I think the China team is doing a very impressive job this time around. I enjoy watching the Olympics this time around too. There are things that you appreciate more when you get older because you understand it better. The next time when the Olympics comes around again, I’m going to be 30 already. Anyway, I die die also must watch the closing ceremony of the Olympics. I should be able to make it even though I’ll be picking Iris up from the airport. Come back home I think ngam ngam the time. Hopefully I don’t need to go through what I went through, rushing back to watch the opening ceremony but getting caught in a terrible traffic jam!

This week is exhausting because I’ve got a lot to do at work. You can say it’s not much but to me it’s a lot because I’m new and still learning. I take such a long time to figure something out. I use a lot of brain juices that I come home everyday feeling so drained than ever before. I don’t know if this is going to be ongoing. Always feeling like I’m catching the train and I always miss the train, which translates to deadline not met. Not a good sign. There is this dilemma of meeting it but doing not thorough and detailed work or doing it thoroughly but to forego meeting the deadline.

I was feeling a little down today that I went to think about things I shouldn’t even be thinking of now. I thought about my old job, that interview I didn’t went, what I actually want, a job with good prospect but requires a great deal of energy and effort, or just a job that is enough to feed me and might not bring me to land in a high-flying career but gives me ample work-life balance.

I’ve also got extra task that I’ve got to do on top of the work I already have. Organising event is not my forte. Actually I do not like organising events for people that I barely know. I’m okay with organising for a group of people I’m comfortable with because I know what to do and I understand the crowd to cater to their needs and making sure everyone’s happy and taken care of. So now that I’ve got to organise something in an environment which is still new to me, it gives me a kind of phobia. I’m abnormal I think. I give myself unnecessary stress and pressure because I’m afraid I don’t do it well, afraid that it’s not going to be good enough, don’t really know what to expect from the crowd. But having said that, I have not let go off the responsibility. Instead I’m doing it the best that I can, which translates to sleeping late because there’s just something to do or think. Waking up in the morning and the first thing that comes to the mind is work. How not to feel drained like that?

When I’m stressed, I will spend more money. To buy that comfort food. There’s just something that I want to buy la!

I know tomorrow’s going to be a better day. At least, I would like to think so. The only interesting thing that happened today is that the parking attendant wished me “Miss, Selamat Pagi”. He didn’t wish anyone walking in front of me but he wished me specifically, or so I would like to think, so I’m happy lor. I have the ability to get stressed even with the smallest thing but I also have the ability to be happy about the slightest detail. And I don’t know if that’s a good or bad thing but I know that’s how I’m wired.

I’m not giving up just yet even though the mind is straying to think of the other things. I do not like it when other things come popping into my mind. It’s that feeling when you know your relationship is going to end, and the kind of feeling when you know you have to move on to another job and so on. You’ll always know. And I’ve experienced it quite a few times that I just know exactly how it feels. So far, I think it’s not that bad la even though today I’m feeling a little blue and a little down.

I think it’s because I’m tired that I’m thinking of things I shouldn’t think of.

I am looking forward to Sunday very very much. I’m going to pick my sister from the airport. I’m so going to pick her from the airport. So going to hug her. So going to hold her. I miss her so much and you have no idea how much. It has been 2 years that I’ve been living without my sister and it’s going to be more than that as she will be going back again after her short holiday in Malaysia. Coping it alone was scary to me but I’d say I’m coping it quite well. It takes a fair bit of courage to be able to deal with certain things alone. Even though people get very shocked knowing that I stay alone, I kind of enjoy the peace and silence, the indirect independence training you get thrown into.

RUN, GRACIE. RUN!

You will have a good day tomorrow, trust me. After work tomorrow, you got to go get yourself an ICED CHOCOLATE. Sit there and indulge in the chocolatey goodie, watch the crowd passing by, imagine yourself puffing an imaginary cigarette, exchange glances with a decent bloke, dream about how cute you are together, then come home and deal with reality again.

Good night, yo!

I’m a little disappointed too but that’s because I’ve harboured high hopes and was actually dreaming that we could score a gold medal for the very first time. I was hoping maybe he could beat Lin Dan but on the other hand, I know Lin Dan will be a very very tough opponent for him. Lin Dan was just world class tonight. He made it looked so easy.

But nevertheless, let’s congratulate Lee Chong Wei, shall we? He played very well in the previous matches but he just couldn’t beat Lin Dan this time. We should, at the least commend him for his efforts. I’ve always like Chong Wei as a badminton player hence this post. I think he’s got a very good attitude. (Better than Lin Dan because sometimes he’s a bit action la and he’s got this pattern of always requesting  to change the shuttle cock, and when people served, he will hold up his hands and say he’s not ready. I’ve seen him play live before in KL, it did annoy the crowd.) That’s because he’s super good so I think he can afford to act that way. You can hate him but you got to love him for being such a wonderful and terrific player.

The main point is….I still like Lee Chong Wei.

I hope the media won’t be harsh on him. Just two days ago, we were being so nice with our words on him, making him look like a hero to us already. Now that he’ve lost in the finals, I hope the media doesn’t trash him. I just feel that there are people right now talking really bad about him so I just feel TAK SYOK. But it’s about how they feel and I can’t say they shouldn’t feel disappointed. But let’s just give him a break, ok?

Once again, CONGRATULATIONS TO LEE CHONG WEI! and I LOVE YOU as a badminton fan. haha

Blog, I miss you but now I’ve got no choice but to say good night.

After that, I went for a body massage which I’ve been craving for a few days ago. Had a 1.5 hour session and a hundred bucks gone. This Chinese lady attended to me and she was good. Painful but not the kind that makes me scream. Painful but very syok kind. So I came home smelling of oil, poorer, happy and sleepy.

I also had ayam penyet for the first time today from Waroeng Penyet. Nice! Nicer if I could dine there with a friend or two instead of taking away. On the menu list, I saw Rawon. This is a Jawanese beef soup. I like it very much. Fell in love with it at Bali International Airport. So I think I want to try this Rawon the next time I go to Waroeng Penyet again. I will bring Iris there! Actually I also love Bali, I hope someone will bring me there. I can plan the itinerary and book the tickets and hotel.  My failed Bali plan a few months ago isn’t going to stop me from going again.

Actually, I just love travelling okay? So if you are in need of a travelling companion, call me!

Yesterday was with another friend. Went to Bangsar to jalan-jalan. She was talking about life target. Like what you want to do with your life and what you foresee yourself to become. For me, I don’t have any special targets or whatsoever. Now, it’s just work for me. Come home not too late, eat and sleep well. Throw in a few swimming sessions in between. Blog and be happy.

Sometimes I feel I’m too young for my age, as in some people at the same age of mine, are already in a advanced level of life, i.e married and settling down, purchasing their own house and etc. I’m still with a piece of blank paper. Sometimes I also feel I don’t know enough but it’s not entirely a bad thing. It keeps life simple when you don’t know too much.

I’m a greater spender than before. I just felt that if I want to eat something and try it for the first time.  I mean I wouldn’t know what would happen to me later or the next day. If I like that top and if it doesn’t hurt my wallet too much, I will get it also. Yesterday, I got myself another duck or a chick (the girl said it’s a chick but when I first saw it I interpreted it as a duck). I think I would name it Si Kurus because it’s skinny. It will be a he since I’ve already got 2 shes (Ducky and Bebeki). So you see, sometimes I think I should lock myself at home because I always get to see something that I like. And when I like it, I will comtemplate to buy it. Buy already feel like scolding myself. But when I see Si Kurus, dia mencuit hatiku.

Okay, now back to house work!

I didn’t know if I could make it but I was telling myself I must make it home latest by 8pm so I started plotting my way out of this traffic jam. Obediently and blindly following along the LDP wasn’t going to bring me anywhere. So I cut out after the LRT station to Taman Megah and then I came to another traffic jam so took the right turn towards KDU and then of course, it connects me back to LDP but instead of getting on to that road, I opt to drive towards the direction of KL city and took an alternative exit into my housing area. One thing I like about staying where I stay now is that I can enter and exit it using different ways.

Upon reaching the second last traffic light before I reach home, there were also more cars than usual and by then it was already 8pm. I only have 8 minutes left!

Anyway, I managed to get home on time at 8:07pm. How do I know? By the time I switch on the tv, the Astro decoder clock was showing 8:07pm. Suddenly I felt so proud of myself. Hahaha. What exact timing but I think the opening ceremony started earlier than 8:07pm because it was already showing the white Olympic logo in black background when I turn the TV on. But it’s okay since I still made to watch it at 8:08pm.

The opening ceremony was fantastic. I like the idea of the scroll, the tiles with people in it and the lighting of the Olympic torch. It was so amazing! Makes you feel proud being a Chinese!

By the time I reached home, (I actually ran to the house after getting down from the car), I was hungry but I just sat there and watch it. I wasn’t moving a single bit until I really cannot stand anymore and had to go pee. Had Maggi only when the athletes starting walking into the stadium. My initial plan was to have rice but wonderful traffic jam had me cancel that plan. Then I started to doze off after I ate and woke up when the Chinese athletes entered the stadium. So super sleepy but told myself must continue watching.

So it ended at about 12:08am and I’m here writing this in super stinky mode.

Happy 080808!

So, I was late to work again.

Nothing special today. No cute guys in sight.

I’m looking forward to watching the Olympics Opening Ceremony tomorrow night. Think it’s going to be awesome. I don’t remember sitting down and actually finish watching any Olympic opening or closing ceremony from the start to the end. This time I want to make sure I watch it. What’s nice this time is that Beijing and Malaysia share the same time zone so we’ll get to watch it at 8:08pm as well.

I’m not going to work late tomorrow. I’ve put in extra one hour each day this week. It is very much needed and I still think it isn’t enough to cover what I need to cover. I’ve got a lot to learn. I’ve been training my brain to act like a sponge since the first day of my work. Maybe I will just go early tomorrow and then leave on time.

My braces. They are 2 months old!

Anyway, remember to do something special should you decide not to catch the Olympics opening ceremony tomorrow night. 2008 08 08 8:08pm is such a defining moment not to do anything special. For me, I’ll either have a hot cup of Boh Tea, accompanied with the television, I might drag Ducky along with me to the TV set and maybe stitch Bebeki back. She’s still lying on the sofa, with her stomach unstitch. Maybe I should get a picture of her so that you can stop imagine how she’s doing with her stomach being unstitched.

OMG, the amount of crap I wrote today!