It’s the wedding season again. I’ve been invited to 4 weddings from October onwards but can only attend 3.

I just attended a Kadazan wedding last night so it was a new experience. Didn’t know the wedding couple though because I just tagged along with dad.

There are babies popping out the last week or so of my friends’ and a cousin’s. All in all, I’m happy for them but can’t really feel how happy I would be if I were them until I land in the same position myself.

But one statement from my mum just hit me last night. “Everyone’s daughter is getting married, except mine.”

Not the kind of statement I’d like to hear.

I’m sure the day will come, it’s just not now.

Typing this from my iPhone in the dark. My parents are still sleeping but I woke up really early, the effects of jet lag is still with me. Catching a flight later back to KL where I’ll need to change mode and be a grown up.

My mind is full to the brim. Truth be told, I’m a little exhausted.

I’m trying hard to stay patient, cool and calm during the daily 8-hour. I’m finding myself getting irritated and annoyed and suppressing it as best as I can, which may be good or bad. After the 8-hour, I still have things to plan and do, which is why I feel that my days for the past few weeks and for the coming weeks to come are just so long.

I really wished I had made a different decision and to allow myself at least one week of break. What I want to do most now is to take a flight home and just be there for a week. I just want to get away and pick myself up again.

But that’s not possible now so I just got to make do with what I have.

Gracie, I know it’s overwhelming but please just take one step at a time and I’m sure you’ll get things planned out.

Nobody trips over mountains.  It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble.  Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain.  - Author Unknown

It’s 6am. You have another hour and 15 minutes to sleep before getting up again. Good morning!!

Okay…so I’ve migrated to a new host because I just cannot have another downtime with my old host. There was some technical glitch during the migration because the database wasn’t a full backup. I have no idea why and which is why this is another reason that I don’t like my old host.

I’m glad I managed to get another backup from WordPress itself so my blog entries are safe. I was so worried because it migrated over, I could only see the latest post dated 20 March 2011. That’s like 6 months of entries going missing. Imagine my horror when I thought they are gone with the wind.

I’m happy with my new host so far and I hope it stays that way.

When I left for work this morning, Pappy locked the door for me. When I came home today, I was looking for my keys and I couldn’t find them! Gah!

I knew I must have left putting the keys in when I switched bags last  night. And the fact that I didn’t use the keys to open the door for myself and lock the doors today didn’t give me any warnings.

So..I started thinking of what I should do. I didn’t have any car key with me as well since today I carpooled with a colleague. If I had, I would have drove to get the other key set from my sister. I feel a little sad that there’s only a few that I can call. A few is so overrated, in fact I only have one person  in mind that could actually save me while I’m keyless.

I’m glad that person was available and so we went for dinner while waiting for my sister to finish work so that we can enter the house together.

Lessons of the day:

1. Touch my keys before I walk out that door every morning.

2. I am in need of more friends that stay nearby. My close friends…they are just so far from me.

I really really hate the aircon at work because it’s just too freaking cold. I was seen stuffing my nose with tissue throughout the whole day because of the coldness. Everyday I look forward to 5:30pm when I get just room temperature when the aircon goes off. And you know how when you’re suffering from flu, you just feel soooo sleepy.

I had tons to do so I just marched on.

Stayed back a bit after that because I wanted to wait for my sister for dinner. The same happened last night but it didn’t materialise as she was caught up with work at the last minute. I ended up having oats for dinner because I couldn’t think of anything edible to be cooked at that time and too lazy to go out with no company.

Today I was happily walking to the car park to have dinner with her, only to be informed that she couldn’t make it again tonight. I wasn’t going to make myself eat oats again or instant noodles for that matter so I went to eat at the food court alone. I wanted something hot and soupy because it has been a cold day for me. Settled for Korean food because the other stalls didn’t look appetising to me.

The lady who attended to me was a Korean and I so wanted to converse in Korean with her but then by the time I wanted to think of how I should make up a sentence, I couldn’t think of one. I know how to say the name of the food, how many, but I just didn’t know how to link those words together to actually say a proper sentence in that instance. I ended up speaking in English.

Anyway, after I finished eating and still not feeling very pleased with my inability, I went up to the same lady who was still at the cashier and said, “안녕히 계세요”, which means goodbye (Selamat Tinggal). I just wanted to connect to her you see? She replied, “네, 안녕히 가세요” Goodbye (Selamat Jalan).

I was beaming to myself.