I Quit

…again!

Saying goodbye hasn’t always been easy for me. But it wasn’t particularly difficult this time because I’ve only been here for almost 3 weeks, less than a month.

Today, I wrote an email to tender my resignation. Would love to do it face to face but he was not around.

He called me and my last day’s tomorrow.

I didn’t have to inform the rest because somehow someone knew and then everyone knew. A few were shocked because I didn’t told them anything. And I didn’t expect them to know it this way. I thought once I get a reply from him, I’d tell the rest but then it happened in another way.

They asked me why I wanted to quit. And I had to answer them with a few of them around. So, I just told them I didn’t find the job suitable for me. I said I don’t think I did a good job and won’t be able to do my best in doing this.

“I also don’t think this job suits you. Cannot imagine you doing this.” A colleague commented.

“But I think you’re doing fine! You learn things fast. At least you do. We’ve had people who knows how to do it but refuses to do it.” One of my colleague said.

I told her my heart’s not here.

And I always like it if I can do my best. It doesn’t matter if doing my best does not appear best to others. So long I know I’ve done my best, it satisfies me. And at the end of the day, what matters most to me is job satisfaction. That is a lovely little feeling that is capable of keeping me alive.

Hopefully, it’s not too far away.

3 Comments

  • fishtail says:

    Good for you. You have the courage; don’t like the job, quit. Have faith in yourself, believe in your own abilities, and you will find another job. There’s no reason why you shouldn’t be able to find another job: you’re qualified, you’re experienced, and you’re young and determined. Best of all, your English is good.

  • Siah says:

    And you strive to do your best and that’s what matters the most. I have seen souless people doing stuff in my Comp Club, they totally suck.

    Your job satisfaction is in a place not far off — our web design firm. Muahahaha. (Dream first la. It will happen eventually, hopefully. ) 🙂

    Jia you whooosh. Don’t forget to listen to the lively song you sent me. The one whose lyrics I couldn’t make out or understand but is too happy.

  • Grace says:

    Thank you fishtail! That’s very encouraging to hear. This is by far the wildest thing I’m doing. Never expected myself to quit a job in less than a month. But I did it because I cannot bear to see myself going through the same process again for the 2nd time. Furthermore, this is going to be more painful than the first one. I just didn’t know how to go on anymore, waking up every morning, talking myself to go to work even when I don’t feel like it and it has been happening for like 3 weeks. Most importantly, I want to find something more fulfilling.

    Siah, I dream first la. Now I’m listening to “Buttons”. Very addictive.

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