For Tim

purple sunrise

When I was in school, I had a classmate that share the same name as me. From Form 1 to Form 5. Grace Kuasa Dua (Grace to the power of two), one of the gelaran we used to have.

During art class, she drew a sunrise/sunset that was purple.

I thought it was pretty.

Cikgu Mokhtar, our art teacher was also our form teacher. He didn’t like it because he says there’s no such a thing as a purple sunrise. I don’t know why I remembered this. Maybe because I tend to observe people who share the same name as me more. Or that Cikgu Mokhtar was simply so funny! In fact, I think he’s the funniest form teacher I ever had. He likes to say, “Beribu-ribu lemon.” Beribu-ribu lemon doesn’t sound like a funny phrase at all but when he says it, it is just so funny.

So, what Cikgu Mokhtar did was, he gave her such low marks that she retorted.

“Saya tak pernah tengok sunset/sunrise yang ungu!”

“Ada Cikgu. Ada!”

“Tak ada!”

Grace was frustrated.

Grace yang lagi satu, I mean myself, have never seen a purple sunrise before. I would love to see one some day.

Tim, I still think I like the bird. Aku suka! Gracie suka!

Don’t Know What Title To Put

When someone goes overseas for further studies, it’s like the whole family who’s going. Even though Iris is the one who’s going but the four of us are worrying, planning and hoping that things go well. But that’s what family is for – doing things together!

My aunt is here today who came with her daughter to a local university who has just had a mid-semester break. My mum cooked dinner for the two of them and we drove to meet them at the university hostel.

We spent about an hour there and we had to leave because cousin sister has got a briefing at 9pm.

As we were saying goodbye to our cousin sister, I could see tears in her eyes.

When we were in the car, our aunt told us that cousin sister wanted us to leave earlier because she needed time to cry before she attends the briefing. She doesn’t want others to see her with swollen eyes.


She has a bear placed on her bed in the hostel. The bear wears a tie. The tie used to be wore by my cousin sister’s when she was a prefect in high school.

“Why do you make it wear a tie?”

“Oh, it’s because of the smell of the tie. I need to smell it in order to sleep.”

It’s the same theory of why I need to hug Ducky to sleep and why Iris needs to bring Pooh and Foo Foo to UK with her.

Girls are weird creatures, aren’t they?

We will be going to the city centre tomorrow very early in the morning. So will be “rubbing shoulders” with everyone who’s going to take the LRT to work.

Hopefully our trip is going to be fruitful because we are trying to get things done with some missing ingredients.

People Think I’m Crazy!

I LOVE Persiaran Kewajipan.

I think the person who invented ice-cream is the most intelligent person on earth.

Today I felt like killing someone on behalf of my sister.

Because she said, “I don’t think you will can make it on the 14th.”

One of the reasons I look up to my father is because he means business when it comes to serious matters. I have always been calming him down or give him that warning stare whenever he appears like he’s going to explode soon. But now, I’m learning to mean business.

Lately, someone is trying to annoy me because he thinks I’m TOO soft and he cannot stand it when he thinks I won’t get angry at all. So what he did was to annoy me to the max, hoping that I’ll get all mad at him. I knew what he did was just to provoke me so that he can hear me curse. I refused to curse. And he cursed me. I have since then decided not to speak to him anymore.

I don’t understand why people want to see me being angry. I mean I can be angry too when I’m angry so there is no need to provoke me when I’m not angry. It’s like if they can see me being angry, they are happy. Apa ni?

Is being a little bit more patient and not getting fumed up in an instance a bad trait? NOW I’m angry.

He was also surprised why I have no boyfriend and am still single because he thinks I’m the kind of girl who needs love everyday. If I need love, it’s not necessarily that I MUST have a boyfriend, isn’t it?

Some also think I’m crazy being unemployed. Is being unemployed really that wrong? Why did you resign, they ask. I said I didn’t like my job and wanted to do something else. You should get a job before resigning, they say. I KNOW.

Why did you took the job in the first place? Don’t you know what you’re going to do? I knew but there were also things that I didn’t know before taking the job.

How can you work for a year plus in a job that you don’t like? Are you crazy? And I’m hearing this from someone who is working in a job he doesn’t like for three years.

It sounds like I’ve been WRONG my whole life and when I just want to make things right again for myself, people come telling me that I’m crazy.

“How old are you now? You have people younger than you that are coming out from uni. You want to change now?”

The fact is that there will always be fresh graduates coming out of university every year so does that mean I should stay stuck here because I won’t be able to compete with others?

“No women does IT. Only man will be in the IT field.” Whoever who’s going to say this to me again will be rest assured to have a gun pointed to his head.

“Huh, you mean you would like to continue your studies if you have the chance? Later nobody wants you, okay?” It’s okay because I’m sure someone out there is going to appreciate someone like me. I certainly do not like people who wants to limit what someone can or cannot do when it’s about gaining more knowledge and enhancing one’s skills.

*Out of breath*