This happened on the first day that Streamyx was down.
I went to look for him at his workplace. Thought of appearing unannounced, just to give him a surprise and make him happy. But I thought maybe I should just give him a call. So I called him from the parking bay.
“I’ll call you back later.”
That was it. I couldn’t say anything more and he hung up.
Knowing that the possibility of him calling back later could be zero or very very much later, I popped in an SMS, just to tell him I’m here and if he’s free, I’ll walk over to show him my face.
So, I went to the music section of the bookstore and listened to songs.
He called and said, “I’m not free….” followed by explanation and a series of events. Upon hanging up the phone, tears welled up in my eyes just like that.
Sometimes I think I miss and love this guy too much.
A guy passing by was looking at me. I turned away to hide those tears.
After one week, he said he’s coming over to see me.
And I don’t know what got into me. I wanted to boil soup for him very much. So there I was, calling him, asking him if he wanted to drink soup or juice. He said, “Soup”. So off I went to the nearby shop to get tomatoes and carrots. And also apples, oranges and a lonely cucumber, just in case the soup is a disaster. I could still make juice to make up to it. The cucumber is lonely because I only bought one. I left its other cucumber friends behind.
He came later than expected because he has got a meeting to attend.
There are just some people in this world that you don’t mind waiting for.
The next day, he asked me to accompany him while he worked. So I went with him to this treasure hunt event and became his assistant. It was just something I’ve never done so it wasn’t too bad. It was quite fun despite it not being very smooth. The most important thing is this time was the longest time ever in these 4 months since we started to see each other again that I get to be beside him.
After the event ended in the afternoon, I went back home and I was alone again and I just felt out of place. I suddenly felt a sudden urge of emotion. I was feeling like I miss him a lot all of a sudden. Like a tsunami. Or a sudden heatwave that just strikes you.
I lied down on the sofa, hugged a pillow and cried like a baby.
No kidding. I didn’t know what was wrong with me.
Usually when I cry, it’s just tears with no sound. That day, was just…
In a nutshell, I have reached a point where there’s no return.
I need someone to do this to me.