I am hard to read.
That is why I need to write so that it’s easier to read myself.
I may be interpreted this way today.
And I may be interpreted a different way yesterday.
Tomorrow you may find that the interpretation you have about me is different than what you’ve come to know today and yesterday.
I can be very happy today.
I can be very sad tomorrow.
I may sound like I’m positive but I’m just scared deep down inside, but just writing positively in hope that it would help to overcome the fear.
I may sound like I’m crazy and I’m really crazy.
Whenever I read something inspiring or watch something inspiring, I’m reminded that my grind at work is really nothing to compared to.
But when I’m at work and I read stories about people dying from overworking, it becomes not very inspiring anymore.
I’ve always had this dream I would like to pursue. It’s not that hard, really. But whenever I’m about to kick-start myself to delve in it, I will then present myself with all the fears that is not true unless proven right. It is so bad, it has been going on for years. I guess I’m just afraid to fail. So I’d rather choose to do something else…and even if I fail, I won’t feel so bad.
But watching a movie 2 days ago made me realise maybe I should just listen to my heart and ignore what my head has got to tell me. Please go watch “Look For a Star” starring Andy Lau and Shu Qi. Nothing at all related to the dream I want to pursue..I’m just merely borrowing the concept. I find it meaningful and very real. Gives you a warm and fuzzy feeling at the end of the movie. I’m just thinking you will definitely like it.