It’s 2:50am as I’m writing this on the laptop seated on my lap while I’m lying on the bed. I didn’t want to freak my parents out waking up at this hour and to be caught sitting in front of my desktop PC of the study room. I came home feeling feverish after work today due to the cold and wet weather in the morning which boosted the aircon at the workplace to work too powerful for my liking. I started to have a runny nose by the time I came home, it wasn’t good.
Downed a cup of hot herbal tea and an apple before bed and tried to get some sleep earlier but I just couldn’t get to sleep because I was sneezing and feeling so uncomfortable. I had to sneak out from the bedroom in search of Panadol but couldn’t find any (also didn’t want to freak my parents out) but I found Clarinase which isn’t too bad a find. Works well for my condition so I popped in one pill and then tried to get to bed. It felt like I’ve slept the whole morning but to my horror, it’s only 2:32am when I suddenly woke up which explains why I’m writing this at a very odd hour on a very very old laptop which has not seen the daylight for I don’t know how many years. You see…when I turned it on, there’s this system configuration error that has got something to do with the system date and when XP is loaded, the system clock showed January 2004. Kesian.
I just felt the need to get things off my chest. I’ve not written for days and that’s because I’ve been busy and I’m trying to balance my life after work. It’s been 2 weeks since I last joined the new place. It has opened up my eyes and broadened my perspective a little. I could also see how I was responding to the new environment, the new people and a whole new life. I’m certainly not the laid-back or happy-go-lucky type when I’m in the office because I’m always spending time worrying, trying my best to absorb everything and doing things right the first time. That may have created unnecessary stress and pressure upon myself but I sometimes find it hard to slow down, sit back, relax and just chill out. I think I can only feel comfortable once I’ve begin to mastered something and I know it by heart.
I was told today that I’m doing it well and that helped indeed. J Sometimes, that’s all we need to hear to continue to strive. I have to continue to do better though because more will be coming to my plate.
However, Mummy isn’t very please with me. Pimples on my face has begin to show, especially on the forehead. When it appears on the forehead, it usually means stress. Then, she went on how I wasn’t keeping the house the way it should be in. Sometimes I get so tired after work, all I want to do is just rest and not lift a vacuum cleaner or re-arrange some stuff. But when Mummy is here, I really got to keep up with her beat. She’s got some ways in which she wants certain things to be done. I have a manager at the office and I also have a manager at home, which is Mummy when she’s around. She was nagging to me just now before I went to bed. Of course, I wasn’t feeling very happy to be lectured at but it’s not something to complain about. Maybe I’ve just not done things well enough at home yet. I’m going to work on that.
Okay, it’s 3:30am and I really think I should get back to some sleep again. Good morning!