…in the morning and I’m still wide awake. I know I’ll be in deep shit tomorrow. Maybe it’s the milk tea I had during dinner. Tried to sleep for the past 1 hour but my eyes are shimmering happily in the dark. Blame it on the caffeine!

Did I regret having that milk tea? No. It was the best tasting milk tea I’ve had in a long time. It comes with a price though. But there is nothing that I can do now…so I might as well live with it and enjoy the serenity with my lappie on my lap, in the room, covered with blanket and a comforter, with Ducky hiding somewhere beneath it, suffocating for breath or perhaps enjoying the darkness under the blanket…while little Foo Foo looks on, guarding me, as always.

Had dinner with a friend today. I appreciate all dinner dates that I have. It’s better than coming home with a mind that starts wondering into places it shouldn’t go to. In fact, I had a feeling that I wanted to walk the mall till it closes and continue walking outside of the mall and enjoy the breeze (or haze) before I head home.

Just when I thought the night will go by peacefully, something popped up to disrupt the peace. This is a test, to see if I’ll be falling back into the trap that I’ve been trying to get out from or stand strong regardless how illogical or how nonsensical it is. Sometimes you don’t need to understand why because when you think you know the answers to it, it appears again as though like you never know the answers to it. It wastes your time and effort, killed many of your brain cells in the process. People couldn’t care less about how you feel and they are carrying on with their lives so happily whether or not you are happy or sad. So, Gracie, why dwell in this utter madness?

The best thing I’ve heard for the day, “Gracie, you can do better than this.”

It’s 3:42am and I’m still awake. Let’s do a quick thankful list and hope it will do me some good.

Thank you for the phone call. Thank you for giving me the strength to carry on. Thank you for the laughter at work today. Thank you for the compliments. Thank you friend! Last but not least, thank you milk tea!

Somewhere beyond the sea
Somewhere waiting for me
It’s far beyond the stars,
It’s near beyond the moon
I know beyond a doubt
My heart will lead me there soon

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