Aging

I’m getting old.

Sometimes I’m so blur.

Sometimes my mind’s a blank.

I tend to get forgetful lately.

I don’t think I can go on with remembering things to do on my head now. I got to list it down or it’ll never see the light of day. I’m not kidding and for the first time in my life, I think I’m aging. I even got to make sure I list down or actually tell myself repeatedly to eat fruit or go make that fruit juice or I’ll never go reach my hand to the refrigerator. I think I’m lazy too.

You know like how your skin starts to age when you’re pass 25. Mine’s sensitive…like some exposure to the sun will cause break-out. I’m using a particular brand which worked fine on my skin and then out of a sudden, it feels like it’s immuned to your skin so it doesn’t really do the job anymore. There are so many freaking products out there and trust me, you have no idea how much money I’ve spent in hoping to find the dream product for my skin. My skin can be a pain in the ass. Some people can survive with just any product picked from the pharmacy/departmental store…but my skin can’t. So, I’m tossing it all away…those brands that you normally get to see and I’m turning to use organic skincare. It’s my second day so far…and I hope this time, my skin will be healthy.

I know products alone won’t help so I’m looking closely at what I eat.

Over the weekend, the places that I happened to go to served terrible food. I don’t know why. But anyway, it was one of the most productive and eventful weekends I’ve had so far. It’s one step closer in realising what I would like to do. I have no experience in this and I know nothing about it so I’m doing this with a friend. And we go in blur together, asking stupid questions (questions we think people should already know but we don’t, hence we think it’s stupid…but it’s actually quite normal), acting like we’re cool and steady when in fact, we are so afraid deep down. In some ways, it’s exciting. It’s like I’m doing “Do one thing everyday that scares you”. The only difference is…I did many things that scared me in one day.

I really really want this to work out and I know I’ll make it work.