I’m a very angry lady today. I was ditched by a friend.
I was out today to meet a friend, who needed a listening ear and I went intend to be all ears. In the end, it ended up me leaving (I didn’t had any choice) because she wanted to meet a guy. It made me feel like a time-filler, a back-up plan, disposable at anytime, not really a friend. I won’t treat my friend that way. I mean if I’ve dated my friends, I will go out with my friends. And not going out with friends but heart is with another person. I’d rather you not going out with me then. Walking alone would have been much soothing for me than to know you need me when you think you need me and I can be disposed of when you don’t need me.
I walked to the car park. Face black and all. Held on the steering wheel very hard too. Drove with a black face and stubborn hands to the saloon to get my haircut.
When I came home after the haircut, I charged to the kitchen and whipped out a meal. No time to think. Just want to cook. Washed the unwashed rice cooker harder than I usually would. Still angry ma. Just want to cook. Still disappointed. I bought kimchi from Jusco because the lady was giving out food sample and when I tasted the kimchi soup, I immediately fell in love. Had to get one. Then, I was compiling my mind for list of food available in the fridge so I just decided to cook kimchi soup with tofu and beef.
I didn’t know how much kimchi I should put, not sure if water is too much but I wanted more soup hence I measured two big bowls. It didn’t taste right so I added a little bit of miso paste (while cooking and googling with my iPhone for this miso tip), added tofu. Marinated beef at a very last minute because I was thinking the kimchi would give flavour to the beef but then Iris suggested I should marinate so ok lah, I marinated it. Not sure if the beef would smell too beef-ish (I think there’s no such word, so pardon me) so I added ginger at a very last minute.
Let it boil some more. Tasted the soup. Very nice wor.
The only fail part is I cooked the beef for too long, a bit tough but it was still okay lah, edible.
Only after I finished dinner did I feel better.
Mega sale has started but my heart is not really with the clothing stores now. I like to do groceries now and enjoying every moment of it. I’ve been doing groceries 2 days already. I like to go to the vegetables section and my mind will start wondering what I should get, what I should cook. I’ve seen ladies buying vegetables and there were a few men too. They looked like they were more experienced than me in getting the good stuff. I am very impressed.
Tomorrow I have this desire to go to pasar pagi to get pork and chicken to make soup. This is so not me. I would always go with my mum and she’ll pick those stuff and I’ll carry for her. So I’ve not really picked chicken or pork at a pasar pagi on my own and I’m not sure how to pick a chicken that is good because they look all chicken to me. But my mum would know which to choose from. So I guess experience matters in this case. I shall learn.
I’m getting domestically-inclined. My mum would be proud because she has been nagging me for ages to learn how to cook.
Cooking must be from the heart, it cannot be forced.