My mind has been occupied since Monday. Something is bugging me. Each time it re-surfaced, I pushed it back to my mind, telling myself I will deal with it later. This is a problem that has been following me for 2 years or more. I’ve never felt so helpless.
Today it got worse and while I was driving home after dinner with a friend, I didn’t feel good. I had this burning urge to make a phone call. Usually that person will not answer my call but this time I used a different number and he answered. I think he was shocked that I called and I was surprised that he answered since he has been avoiding all form of contact, phone call, SMS…for yeah…2 years or more. I’ve begged, I’ve scolded him, I’ve cursed, I’ve plead…you name it.
No one has ever done that to me.
Anyway, the problem is still not solved but I hope he means what he said. It will take some time but slowly and surely, I know this problem will be resolved. I used to be very very angry with this person. Very very mad. But when I decided to make that phone call today, I told myself I have to sound nice.
Now it’s back to bedtime stories time. I’m reading Eat.Pray.Love