Be quiet, so that life may speak.
First of all, Happy Chinese New Year! and Happy Birthday! It’s the 7th day of CNY and everyone grows one year older today.
Had wanted to write something earlier but the Internet access at home is just too slow and keeps disconnecting. I like the fact that I’m back to KL with fast Internet access but I miss home so badly that I’m really feeling a bit teary-eyed now.
Was talking to Mum in her room last evening before we made our way to the airport…when I started to want to you know..cry a little but I just have to hold back.
Every time I go home, it never fails to bring back lots of lost memories and feelings. Every trip home during Chinese New Year is always different and special in its own way. This Chinese New Year is the first in which I spend without my braces which is really really cool. Imagine 3 CNYs with braces and this is the first without it…awesome.
This is also the year in which I’ll be hitting 30 in July. I consider myself 30 already if you go by the calendar year. I don’t feel 30 at all. Would like to be looking like 30, acting like 30 but I just don’t think I’m there. This year, I have my sister’s friends who are 3 years younger than me..that are married and have started giving out angpau and I’m also one of the lucky recipients. It does feel weird. It was weird when my married friends started giving me angpau but it’s weirder now that people younger than me are giving me angpau. It is like a gentle reminder that something needs to be done.
I met friends that I’ll meet every year. The number of friends that comes home gets lesser as the years go by and as friends get married to other places. It is how it is, isn’t it? Just got to adapt and experience life as it goes by.
Went out for drink with a schoolmate for the first time. It’s funny that we are acquaintance, we used to greet each other in school and that’s about it. I’m happy we met for a drink and he kept persuading me to come home for good.
Met another friend whom I thought will be hard to be forgiven one or two years ago but now, I don’t feel anything and we are back to how we used to be. Again it proves that time heals.
Met you..as would every CNY allows us to. Thank you for your patience and for telling me all the things I once did and things that I’ve said but have forgotten. It’s nice to have someone telling me how it used to be, brings back lots of memories. I’ve always thought that I have a pretty good memory but it looks like mine is fading.
I wish everyone love, health and wealth and most of all happiness in this Dragon year. I’ve read pretty mixed reviews of my zodiac’s prediction but wouldn’t want it to bother me too much. If it is to be, it is up to me.
A text message I received today. Hoping it will be the beginning of something beautiful.
Why do you speak to Grace in English?”
“I don’t know….She has got this English-speaking look so I tend to speak to her in English.”
“So, does that mean I have a Chinese-speaking look?”
Now I know..anyway I have tried replying to conversations in Cantonese but both still talks to me in English. And sometimes I find myself speaking in Mandarin, Cantonese and English in one lunch session when I talk to different people. Some knows Mandarin but not Cantonese. Some speaks Cantonese but not Mandarin. English is still the universal language but I’m glad I speak all Mandarin, Cantonese and English so it doesn’t really matter. Oh! And a smattering of Korean.
Buying a new shoes and walking around the house in it and looking at those pretty feet.