I was blow drying my hair when an SMS came in. It’s nice to have your hair washed in the morning, especially if you have long hair because you have the whole day to dry it without the sole dependence on the hair dryer. You won’t understand this unless you have thick and stubborn hair.
I lied down on the bed with my tummy pressing against the bed to read the SMS. I was expecting a friend’s message but it was from him.
Thanks for your understanding girl. When I have problems, you are always with me. And you didn't ask much because you know when's the right timing.
He calls me girl and I call him boy. Sometimes we don’t call each other names, we just hold hands.
He’s back to Ipoh to visit his grandma who was admitted to the ICU. I don’t know when he’ll be back or when I’ll meet him. I lied on the bed, gazing at the phone longer than I ought to. Re-reading the message until I felt satisfied.
He doesn’t usually say things like that. Sometimes I’m like that too. Always trying to act cool even though deep down inside the fire is burning! The most is I’ll write about how much I like him here but it doesn’t always come out from my mouth, having me telling him how I feel.
Don’t you feel that sometimes there is just no words to put to tell someone how much you love him? When saying I love you just isn’t enough?
And I must say..not asking him much about the whys is not easy. It tests my patience and surpresses my curiosity. You tend to be more curious towards people you love and he’s certainly one subject that I find it rather hard to grasp. But I do know that he doesn’t like to be binded tightly and he needs a lot of space. And I mean a lot.
I’m more towards the clingy type if I like you a lot. So, for me not to be too clingy is kinda difficult, which is why sometimes I get very restless when there isn’t much time for us to meet or when we do, time is just so short and that I feel like I haven’t cling to him long enough.
I’m still trying..trying to give him that space while remaining sane.
Today I feel like I’m falling in love with him again.