Depression #1: My Story

I’m suffering from depression. Who would have thought?

I don’t know how and when it started but I guess it was an accumulation of events from the recovery of my eye surgery which was very tough for me, a job I don’t find purpose or meaning in it, trying to be so many things yet not becoming any of it, was always feeling afraid, always feeling I can always be better.

I went into a state of hopelessness, helplessness, darkness and the inability to feel anything within me. In other words, I was just dead inside, which I think is worse than actually dying physically.

I couldn’t make even the simplest decision. I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t concentrate. I feel that my memory is failing me and that there is a possible brain damage because I just can’t seem to connect the dots of even the simplest of things. Everything required effort.

As of writing, I’m recovering well and recovering fast. This would be followed by a series of my depression short stories. Stay tuned.

2 thoughts on “Depression #1: My Story

  • January 4, 2014 at 10:55 pm
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    Dear Grace, find comfort in the fact that millions of people suffer from depression and mental disorders – you are not alone. If there’s one book I recommend for you it’s:
    ‘Being Happy’ by Andrew Matthews.
    Can be seen as my bible for life.
    Good luck!

  • January 12, 2014 at 5:03 pm
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    Thank you! 🙂

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