I’ve been waking up by my jerks in the morning. It usually happens just around the time the brain starts the engine in the morning while I’m still in bed. It started while I stopped one of the medication that made me stopped worrying but at the same time made me ate a lot. Nothing scary that I felt previously but yesterday and today, I felt a little lost. Not wanting to let it grow into something that is out of control, I took out my yoga mat and did 5 sets of sun salutation. I felt better and looking back, I think it’s due to the lack of exercise. Yoga classes in the evening have been cancelled as there are not enough students so I’m going to replace it with tennis session, my own workout at home or just yoga session at home. I’ve decided that I’m going to do exercise everyday whenever possible, even if it’s just a 30-minute walk. It is a must. I think exercise is the only most effective way for mental health as it reduces the body’s stress hormones. Relying on medication alone is just not enough because once you’re off medication, you’re back to square one. No matter how positive I think and if I stay idle with all the stress hormones accumulated in my body, I’m not making any progress.
I just played tennis at 6pm today and I’m going to play 8am tomorrow. This is also helpful in setting my day right as there’s something to look forward to. Something to kick start the morning and then that should get my system running and I can be more productive later in the day. My priority now is health, followed by wedding. I still think of the future when I sit on the toilet bowl a little longer but they are just thoughts and I would bring myself back and say, “I’ll deal with it when it comes. I don’t know how but I will deal with it when it comes.”