Jingle Bell Rock

Today is a day that I should be grateful that I still have a job. Even though somehow I have a feeling that I will be someplace somewhere doing something closer to heart.

After not keeping abreast with the news lately, no time to read newspaper, dare not surf news during working hours and will only spend remaining time left before bedtime to blog, I was flipping through the papers today and all I see is year-end sale, warehouse sale and more sale. So..if I ever splurge this time, it will be the papers’ fault! 😛

SMSed the-guy-who-used-to-love-me-and-then-decided-to-disappear-into-thin-air for some non-personal stuff matter but received no reply. For the first time in my life, I believe someone really hates me. But the good news is that I think I’m handling rejection better now, or maybe the correct term to be used here is non-responsiveness.

I’m going to rock the world tomorrow. The world will rock with me day after tomorrow and before you know it, December is here and I’ll tell Santa I’ve been a good girl and I deserve some guy. He will always get his Christmas present everyday because that gift would be me.

I used to hate people who would always talk about how lonely they are or how meaningless life is without someone to love or how desperate someone can get and always wanting to have someone by their side because I think without it, you can still survive and life will still go on. But look at me now, I think I’m becoming a mat nenek, everytime I’ll always come back writing about the same stuff. Single. Needs boyfriend. Emotional. Needs boyfriend. Floating through life. Needs boyfriend. Christmas. Needs boyfriend.

But I think la hor, when I really have someone approaching me, I might just cringe at the thought of it.

3 Comments

  • gracieq says:

    I have 2 very close gfs who are some of the strongest people I’ve met in my short life. But they’re also in the same boat with you – getting over breakups and going through life as best as they can. Their relationships ended over a year ago and they’re still feeling the hurt that came with it when it ended.

    Recently, one of them came across a book, “The Naughty Girls Guide to Life” which dishes out advices on how to get over men. It’s a fun read and should not be taken too seriously. Still, some of the advices they have in the book is quite spot on. It may not necessarily help you heal your heart immediately, but I’m pretty sure you’ll be able to pick up a tip or two to feel good all the time.

    Hang in there. God always take care of His children. It’s just a matter of time and place. 🙂

  • cbenc12 says:

    hey i like this “He will always get his Christmas present everyday because that gift would be me.”!

    u go girl!

  • silent_one says:

    There’s nothing wrong with writing the same stuff again & again. Remember that this blog belongs to you truly & you have the ultimate right to determine what goes in it. If you’re a ‘mat nenek’, then I’m a ‘mat datuk’ due to the fact that I keep repeating about my job woes, right?

    Nevertheless, you are one strong woman, and I believe you can get through this real soon. 🙂

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