Knowing that I’m an INFJ and reading more about INFJ (this is one interesting read ) made me learn things about myself. It’s like having someone telling you how you are like. It’s scary and it’s so true. I don’t think I can change the core of me but I would like to work on some things now that I know how I’m like. Things people won’t tell me, whether they don’t realise it or maybe it’s not really a big deal.
INFJs hardly ever initiate anything. They like it when the other person initiates a conversation, contact, etc. (Source )
Comparatively, I’ve started initiating things more now than I used to but it’s still not enough. Initiating a conversation may seem like an easy task but to me, it’s an effort. Sometimes I give myself a pat on the shoulder for initiating something. It’s maybe something normal and not an achievement for others, but to me, depending on what situation I’m in, it’s like an achievement.
I started sending a text message to someone today (yes…initiating conversation). That person has yet to reply but it’s ok because when I sent that out, it put a big smile on my face. There is still a lot of work to be done but I’m not going to be too hard on myself. I will do it gradually and eventually and hopefully, this will not be an effort anymore but a natural thing to do.
I really liked this from the article though.
“INFJs take time to open up. They are slow burners. I find I can’t really get to know them until after many prolonged conversations. But after you enter their realm of trust they are the sweetest, most genuine people.”
You see…I have “layers”. This platform may be the only place where I’m being 100% honest of what I think and feel and cannot be reproduced when you ask me verbally. I may be able to give you the answers but I will not be as descriptive as how I would be in written form. I have people telling me that I’m different when they first start to know me and when after they know me (of course, it’s provided that I open up and allow them to peel my “layers”). So if I don’t open up to you at a normal speed, it’s not really because I hate you, it may just be that I need to know I can trust you and I’m in safe hands before I do that.
I’m grateful that recently someone has been “studying” me. Maybe that person is just curious but it’s a little scary when that person studies what bag you carry, what shoes you wear, what your eyes say when you don’t open your mouth and is able to “read” you. It’s been awhile since someone notices me and it’s heartwarming to know that at least there’s someone out there who actually understands who I am. Because I get a lot of “You sure you’re ok? You seem quiet.” (Actually I just got one tonight). Anyway…I want to write more but it’s 1am but I should really get some sleep.