Another sleepless night so let’s write!
If I could, I’d like to go run now. Just run till I could see a better perspective, and run to free my mind.
If I could, I’d like to quit and take a break. Spend time with my mum. Make new friends that matter to me and me matter to them.
If I could, I’d like to become who I used to be. Happy, chirpy, calm, steady, dare to leap, not what I’ve been feeling lately – tensed, stressed, insecure, indecisive, lack of courage.
I have a certain view towards life and that I’d like it simple. But then life brings you to a point that requires you to think deeper and things start to appear more complex. You have more stuff added to your plate whether you like it or not or whether you’re ready. Just exactly what I’m feeling right now.
When it gets bottled up and when you think there’s just too much for you to handle, somehow you’d find your way despite the changes and challenges. It’s still not easy but because it’s been so difficult, you would want to make it easier for yourself so that you could go on, so that you could breathe and let go of words that are hurting, moments that petrify you, let go off the clutter and just to be able to walk confidently and take life in as it comes.
I pray and want to work towards loving myself again.
If I could, I’d really like to go run now.